apsal ha????

y am i so misarable wenever im thinking bout u????
y cant i take those feeling away from me???
how can i forget bout u??
y???
y???
y do i keep on crying over u???
yy???
plizz make all of dis stop...
we broke up upon wat??
a lousy promise???
it was me who was suppose so say all those sweet thing to u...
it was me who really wanted 2 see u...
it was me who can only luv u...
it was suppose to be in ur life!!!!
i hate everything now...
im trying to hate u but i cant...
the more i try the ore i misses u...
y cant we be juz like old time??
y can i be apart of ur life anymore??
am i dat bad?
am i dat disgusting??
am i dat selfish??
can i be selfish to find my own happyness??
or werent u happy being with me??
werent u happy hanging out with??
werent u happy talking to me??
werent u happy being by my side??
wat can possibly be wrong wth us??
we fight?
we hate each other sometimes?
but didnt in the end were always back on our foot again???
im misarable now...
i dont blame u...
i blame myself coz i let u out of my hand...
each and everyday i will hate myself...
each and everyday i will scold myself....